Guidance please
The other day I asked God for guidance. What do I get? Another invite and him live on my screen.
Just when I talk myself into thinking I’m crazy for letting my imagination get the better of me, I end up talking to him. Yeah, the other night while I was out and about, I told myself that I was losing it and that I cannot be serious. I think about this guy way too much. And the thoughts I have are just..out there. Should I even be thinking them because I’m here and he’s WAY over there? But then I see him online today. I actually started the conversation. See, I said I would. So we talked for a bit. Then he asked me if I had Skype. Yep, sure do! But when he rang me, my laptop froze up. Oh well, so back to our normal chat we went. And that’s when he asked, for the 3rd time, when I was coming to visit him. When he first mentioned it, he said he’d like to have me out for an event. Next time, he asked about me visiting his city. But this time, he asked about visiting him. Him! That’s when my Skype decided to work, and we began talking there. But we didn’t get into the visit again.
So we talked about 15 minutes. He seemed disappointed that I didn’t have my camera hooked up. That worked out well for me because I certainly was not at my best. When I don’t go out, I do nothing to myself. I had my hair wrapped up in a scarf. Not cute at all. Not in the least bit. He, on the other hand, looked very handsome, as usual. He had the accent working for him too. Yeah, I didn’t mention that last time. So it was the shoulders, the swagger, and the accent. What’s not to like?
Now that we’ve progressed to Skype, I feel like I need to get the webcam situated. And I need to put some thought into my appearance even when I’m not leaving the house. This will also give me a chance to know him better. And I’m sure the question of visiting will come up again. I would so love to plan a long weekend, but I don’t have the means to. I was just looking at ticket prices and it’s not looking good. I’ll need to sell a kidney. Maybe we can work around it. Maybe…
So yeah, as far as guidance goes, I feel like I’m being pointed in his direction. The question is, Will I actually get there?
