Not even in my dreams
The dream I had this morning tickled me. Some of my dreams are like being in Quantum Leap. I’m plopped in the middle of a situation and I’m trying to figure out who I am. And in this dream, I am plopped into a household with a husband and kids (3 maybe). I didn’t feel like they were mine at all. It was like I had amnesia. Anyway, I’m all excited because I’m married, and I’m planning quality time with the hubby later. So we have a friend over and we’re chit chatting. And since I feel like I have amnesia or something, I try to get hubs to give me more info. I specifically mentioned not able to remember our wedding day and wanted him to give me the break down on how it went. He tells me that we’ve been together for however long and that I’m his common law wife. What? WHAT? So basically, we’re playing house. Oh no, we don’t play that here. In my mind I’m thinking, we’ve been together long enough for you to know if you want to marry me. And brotha man was way overdue. So at that point, I calmly get up, go into the bedroom, close the door, and start deciding what I’m packing because I’m leaving his ass. And since I felt in no way connected to the kids (I’m thinking they were his), I arranged to call them into a room one by one to explain that I was leaving. Just as the first meeting was about to go down, I woke up to pee.
I called my best friend this morning and told her about the dream. I could not stop laughing. I guess in my dreams and real life, I’m not down with giving years of my life to someone who is not committed to spending his life with me. Maybe I’m old fashioned but in my mind, that means marriage. That reminds me, stupid fool who can’t even commit to texting regularly made a comment once. “Say we’re dating for like 3yrs…” and just then, I cut him off. Three years? Brotha, you got like a year and some change tops. If you don’t know that I’m the one by then, I’m out. I’m not wasting my time on a soul. It may be harsh, but whatever. Life is too short. And you’re not gonna waste my time.
Interesting blog so far. Keep it up. You seem more confident in this last post. Celibacy is probably the reason for it. When you break up with someone, after some time, you end up gathering yourself back and you build anew.
Hey Rusty, thanks for stopping by. You know, I’m not sure if celibacy is a factor or not. Never had sex with the ex. Now I’m wondering if I had, how much longer it would take to put him behind me.